If you really knew me....
You would know that Iyla starts Kindergarten on Tuesday
and that this milestone is affecting us all in different ways.
You would know that I expected to be nervous, anxious and a little sad.
You would know that I didn't expect to feel so unprepared.
That I surprised myself by just how difficult sending her to school really is.
You would know that I am SO excited for her to start this adventure,
but so sad because OUR lifestyle is going to change.
You would know how much I have LOVED these last five years, when we were able to just BE.
No schedules, no expectations, just sweet, slow, lovely life, filled with smiles, laughter, pj days, made up holidays, random dance parties, messy crafts, afternoon naps, long walks, make believe, cuddles, celebrations, joy, PEACE.
You would know that I feel so blessed to have spent these years at home with my girls, letting them grow up slowly.
You would know what a joy it has been for me to watch them explore the world in their own unique ways.
You would know that I’m scared that she’s not ready to go, that the “real world” will hurt her or crush her spirit.
You would know that Craig and our girls are my world.
You would know that their happiness is everything.
That I want so much for them.
I want them to be confident and to celebrate their uniqueness.
I want them to be kindhearted and brave; I want them to make good choices, every day.
I want them to Love, and to be Loved. To make great friends, and have great adventures.
I want them to be filled with Joy and Compassion.
If you really knew me, you’d know that I love my life, and that I want my girls to live full lives.
You would know how much I cherish my daughters. How long I prayed for them. How much I LOVE them.
If you really know me, you would know that I will need extra hugs, tissues and café mochas on Tuesday.
You would know that I am praying for you, and wishing you peace.
What is on your heart today?